Forest

Is it just me
Or is this reality
I seem to be returning to the colder cycle
Of my emotional jungle of instability

Where a perplexing voice of inadequacy is the ruler
And I try to walk the path of gratitude
But fall short and stumble towards the end
When I face this crippling noise in its enormity

I know only I have to guide myself
Through these thickets of solitude
I’ll have to use my toughest stance
Mustering up all courage to build myself back up

For this place I am entering
Is filled with uncertainty and fears
Where my old demons come to play
And I become timid as my strong resolve fades

I cannot promise I’ll be strong
The beasts can effortlessly overpower me
At that time I may not look forward in my journey
Where I would have seen a more secure self

At least I have visited these barren lands before
To sustain I have developed systems of coping
Trying to be caring no matter what challenge
Seeing the light towards the end of the long way

Who knows what tomorrow entails
I can prepare myself the best
Until the future comes smashing me in the face
The greatest test of my love’s sustenance